
It’s my favorite time of year—apple picking, pumpkin patches, fun tights, caramel apples, popcorn, beeswax candles and costumes. It’s the time of year I’m happy to linger beneath a tree or chase the setting sun. It’s also a time of change, letting go, and setting new goals.
I won a pitch session with an agent last week, and it didn’t go as planned. In fact, I learned it’s impossible to sell middle-grade novels at the moment and on the fly I pitched my YA novel from years ago. She loved the idea and agreed to read it when it’s ready. I’m proud of how I shifted gears in the moment, with only a brief stumbling of my words, but that story isn’t where my heart is right now. Should I pivot anyway? Is selling my books the goal? What if it takes me another ten years to write anything?
Obviously, this sent me into a creative existential crisis for a few days, but with the help of my incredibly creative friends, I found my way back to the truth. I want to write cool shit that makes me happy. My middle-grade novel is for my daughter. If nobody else reads it, then it’s okay. It’s her story, for her. Maybe when it’s ready the industry might be interested, and maybe not. If I start trying to write what I think will sell, then I’m going to be forever chasing a shadow that’s moving quickly across the ground. No thanks.
So, while I’m forever reinventing myself and changing, I do know wonderful things are happening all around me. I hosted a Halloween party at my home for the first time in years and it was a blast! My talented friend, who I’ve known since her birth, will be releasing her book on Halloween (CHECK IT OUT). I’m making strides toward my new health goals. I just listened to a story that reminded me how much I love twisted fairytales and writing weird things. I’ve got a bowl full of fresh apples on my counter and I cleaned out my garage.
So come with me to the apple orchard. Let’s see how the light hits the apples and hear the crunching of the leaves beneath our feet.














- Photos were taken with an Olympus OM-D and edited with ON1 Photo RAW
Here’s some bonus shots from my iPhone:



Wow, mouthwatering
They really are! Eating one as I type this.
I love apples
Don’t talk to me about apples. Here it’s been a bounteous year for all fruits and berries. People can’t give fruit away. We had a great Cider Festival at Hamptonne a couple of weeks back. So from your pics I choose the cute entry sign, but also at #11 what I take to be gadgets for collecting apples out of the trees? Beats breaking your neck off a ladder 🙂
Having an abundance of food is a great problem to have! A Cider Festival sounds so incredibly lovely. That is the little apple pickers. They are pretty fun to use.
Beautiful photos of apple picking! I’m curious why they said middle grade novels aren’t selling now. Did they give you specifics? I’m written YA, middle grade and picture books. I got an offer on one picture book and I declined the offer because I didn’t think it was “big enough!” I’ve kicked myself since then for 15 years and no other offers except magazines and newspapers. As for my YA and middle grade, I’ve been told my writing isn’t “edgy enough.”
Thank you! Sorry it’s taken me so long to respond to this comment. What the agent said was that publishers are pressing pause on new middle-grade right now. It happened years ago with YA, but then it came back roaring forward. She didn’t say why, but I suspect it has to do with so many books for that age group being banned. It might just not be worth the risk for them right now. Regardless, keep writing your books. You never know what will happen.
As for kicking yourself for the offer 15 years ago, you just weren’t ready then. Your time is coming! Keep going.
Thanks for your kind comment!
Congrats on the offer, and what a lovely post in general. Autumn is my favorite time of year. It’s simply magical. 🧡🎃🍂🍁❤️🤎
It’s my favorite time of year too! So glad you liked these photos and thank you. I’m excited to keep moving forward in my writing career and seeing what happens next.
Art vs. money. A writer’s conundrum. Do what makes your heart sing, unless you need the money soon.
Thanks, Rebecca! I could always use the money, but I know that breaking through in the publishing industry is such a long shot. For me, it’s more about remembering why I write, and keeping true to myself. Money will come or it won’t. It can’t be the reason.
Yes, a woman after my own heart.
Lovely photos, Bridgette! Be well. ☺️
Thank you! I’m glad you are on the mend, friend. Getting older is certainly interesting.
Yes, its a bit of a pain in the bum too…
Kudos on clarifying and following your passion and values in writing for yourself Bridgette. Happy Autumn.🍁
Happy Autumn! I’m working on just pushing through the doubt and keeping on going. It’s a daily battle. I’m so blessed to have such amazing people like you rooting me on.
Thanks Bridgette. I’m glad you’re making progress. I wasted too much of my life with fear and doubt.
That’s really the main thing I’m learning as I get older. All the ways I let fear hold me back are silly.
#7 and #11 were my favs.
Thank you! I’m so glad you liked those.
What beautiful photos. I love the light and colors this time of year, and you caught those colors beautifully. I love the bonus portrait of you! Congratulations on your pitch session, even if it didn’t go as planned. I really like how you phrased, “If I start trying to write what I think will sell, then I’m going to be forever chasing a shadow that’s moving quickly across the ground. No thanks.” That resonates. I would say #14 (all those water drops) and #7 (abstract colors and shapes of fall), along with the intro photo of the road and leaves are my favorite this week!
Thank you so much, Anna. You know what’s funny…I almost just scrapped these photos. I can get so hard on myself and I wanted them to be more, or maybe different. I’m not sure. But it’s like my writing, it’s me. It’s how I see the world and how I interpret it. I need to start seeing that as a strength. Thank you for always encouraging me.
I’m so very glad you didn’t scrap them, they made me miss Apple Hill (with the emotional fondness that memory brings.) I love your voice, both in photos and writing.
Aww! Thank you.
Like apples, your post made me smile and I’m so proud of you for pitching to an agent. “write cool shit that makes me happy” 👏🏻🍎 Beautiful photos!
Oh, you are so sweet! I’m so happy I made you smile. Keep being a ray of light, and congratulations again on the publication of your book. Looks like your having a blast.
Rolling along… you know how it goes, Author Bridgette. 😊 Thank you for your sweet reply! 🦋
I do! It’s so much, but you are rocking it. I’m so proud of you.
🤪😄😅 Thank you so much and I am so proud of you!
Publish it yourself. It costs nothing, money-wise … a bit of a learning curve, but the process is getting easier and easier all the time. And you don’t have to let other’s opinions of what is ‘good’, or what will ‘sell’ decide your book’s fate.
Truth is there’s absolutely NO guarantee’s in this business, no matter what an agent or publisher will tell you.
Thank you for the kind words. I did self-publish my short story collection and I’ll have a poetry book out in the Spring (also self-published). However, it’s hard to get books into the hands of the middle-grade audience without the backing of a publisher. Who knows though? Maybe the future of my Thor’s daughter book will be written through different means. I’m certainly not worried too much about it being a best seller, I just love the story and want it out in the world.
I agree with this paragraph.
“If I start trying to write what I think will sell, then I’m going to be forever chasing a shadow that’s moving quickly across the ground. No thanks.”
Absolutely! We have to stay true to what we want to write. It’s the only way.
Amen to that!
V.beautiful farm house and lovely beauty with apples
I’m so glad you liked them! I felt so lucky to get to visit such a beautiful place.
The ripe apples are tempting.
There’s hardly a photo I don’t like. Thanks! Glad you’re in a good place with your writing.
Awww, thank you! So glad you liked these. I’m editing some photos right now of a friend’s orchard. I have a feeling you’ll like them too. They spurred me to write a short story, so when it’s done, I’ll be posting both.